He was ushered into the sterile utilitarian office and looked at the same chair from before. It was soft, slightly worn from the multitude of bottoms that had sat there before him. A lot of bottoms had rested there, and as he thought about how one's bottom would make a different impression for those that were sane, or not, he realized it was difficult to determine. Then came the thought that the chair might possibly exude some causative force that made those sitting there insane. That was a realization that he just might have been confined here too long already. He sat nevertheless and smiled at the doctor. It had been nearly a month since they had first met. Certainly an indication that she felt he was not in need of daily counseling. His bottom must have been assessed as sane.
"So Mr. Marshall, how have you been?"
"Good Doc, good, thank you. My sinus problems are back, but all in all, good."
"Yes, I see you saw the GP here. Anyway, I'm very curious as to what's been going on with the other thing we talked about. Any progress."
"Yes, sort of. I was with god right after we spoke. god was interested in what we spoke about. I relayed what I could remember of our conversation."
"What, I don't understand. Doesn't, well, wouldn't god already know what we spoke about?"
"Well, I don't know. god requested that I tell him, and we discussed it in great detail. But as to whether or not god was already aware of that which transpired, I don't believe so. There were a lot of questions."
"Was god perhaps just testing you, determining your level of understanding?"
"Well that's one possibility. It certainly is possible that god wanted to determine the extent of my own personal commitment to this endeavor as well as, well, yours."
"Yes, I see. I'm now an integral part of this aren't I?"
"Very much so doc. And it seems as though god approves of your concept of introducing a new paradigm of faith. We in fact talked at length about what I should write and what to present to the public. In fact god gave me a great deal of new information to begin."
She sat back in her chair, and tilted her head to the side, visibly interested in what he was about to say next. She asked, "What new info?"
"Well, we began at the beginning. Creation."
"The Creation, wow. From god. Now, I'm intrigued." And she sat up straight in her chair.
"Well, don't get to excited. Creation is a bit of an over simplification. It isn't the book of Genesis version at all. Nothing monumental."
"Okay, so give it to me."
"Well, it seems that in the beginning, there was light."
She waited a few moments for him to continue, and when he didn't, she asked, "That's it?"
"Sort of. Remember when we talked and I told you that god, and others. had said that all of us are composed of the basic part of the universe? Light."
"Yes, it was a big part of our discussion."
"Well it goes deeper than that, light is the basis of not just life, but the essence of creation itself."
"I don't understand."
"Well let me see if I can explain it. Man, well, humans, need a beginning. the universe itself has no such designation, beginning, existence, finality. The universe is. It just is, period. So for humans to better understand, we need to have this beginning. This is the one that god provided for me as one that humanity is capable of understanding. There was a sea of spirit, of oneness. It was all, it encompassed everything. It was all of space, all of time, all of thought. It was awareness. All, everything. For us, we can visualize the all as having contemplated what was. And yes, it is circular, what was, what is, what will be, are in fact part of the All. The spirit, that which was all, withdrew into itself until all of space was empty. However it is something we as mere mortals cannot grasp this awakening of the spirit and the beginning of individuality. Part of that which was all, awakened and became aware of itself. This was self awareness. Or perhaps vanity."
He could see within her a look of complete frustration. And she began with a question, "This is more than a bit confusing. Or is it just me?"
"No Doc, it is confusing. But think of it all like this. An ant, thinks, however primitive its thoughts might be, it is aware of its environment, hunger, and of course its instinctive drive to live. Our ant is born, nurtured in a loving environment then when mature it goes out into the world to do the duty prescribed by its place within its societal parameters here on this plane of existence. Our ant may in fact look up into the night sky and see stars, might even wonder about the universe, but those things are outside the ability of the ant to understand anything more than eat, work and avoid the giant humans that stomp on it."
"Mr. Marshall, we're not ants."
"Of course not, but we are however confined within our framework of understanding by not only the constraints of what can be accepted by the parameters that guide our own society but by the possibility that our physical minds are just not capable of the comprehension of our universe in its entirety in much the same way as our friend the ant can't conceive of making a spaceship and flying to the bright object in the sky. It is barely within our ability to even imagine the infinite distances between galaxies in the universe, and that is just one of the basic ideas in this universe. That vastness dwarfs our ability to conceptualize the universe as anything but this giant, well, no, inconceivably gigantic place where there is nothing, and we are but a spec of dust on a world that in itself is massive to our thinking. For god, the universe is. There is no difficulty conceiving size differentials such as what we must do. Here on earth we live, to us the universe is infinite. To god, the universe just simply is. And there are a multitude of concepts that god exists with and is now attempting to define calculus to the ant. In other words, me."
"I think I understand, what you're saying is that the universe is much more complex than what our minds are capable of understanding and that god considers us like the ants?" She said in a sort of questioning way.
"Well, sort of, I don't think god has actually specifically told me that particular metaphor. The fact is god is very patient, god explains things, or tries to anyway, as simply as god believes I am capable of understanding. And there are many many times when I ask, and am told that the answer is outside my realm of comprehension. You know, when god says that, I believe it.
“Okay Mr. Marshall, back up just a sec, just to clarify for me, that is if you know, according to what you said regarding past, present and future being all one, is there a future, a separate timeline that we must travel through or is our future part of this beginning, part of the all?”
“Ah, yes, to both. From our perspective, we live in the present, we exist, perform daily functions, we live. When god is here with me, the same constraints of time exist for god as they do for us. And yet god exists outside this plane of existence as well and for god time is just another aspect of the universe. When I asked about whether god then knows our future I was told that god exists within our timeline as do we and cannot know tomorrow. When we first met, the information on the paper about the suit you were wearing was given to me by god just before I came in to see you.”
She sat back in her chair, relaxed a bit and appeared to mull over the latest revelation. Finally she began, “However, you also told me that god gave you specifics about others, and god knew things about my past. How?”
“Well, god chose people that came to the market, gave me particulars about them in the same way about you.”
“So god knows our past then?”
“Of course, that which was, is. Our past is a part of this plane of existence and is accessible to god. And I know it's completely contradictory, but in that same vein, all time is part of the universe and as such god is aware of what was then, what is now and what is to be.”
“Mr. Marshall that doesn't make sense, if as you stated god knows what is to be then he is in fact prescient. Right?"
"Well think about it a minute. As I said, in this plane of existence. Here god follows the timeline we do. However god being god has greater ability and can see the past, but not the future since it hasn't happened in this plane of existence as of yet. This plane is but one of the seven planes of existence that make up the universe. And that was what I was getting to about the beginning stuff. We sort of have to understand the first part in order to get to the rest."
“The first part?"
"Yeah Doc, the whole reason why there are seven separate existences."
Sitting back again in her chair, she sighed then started, "Okay. I guess I should allow you to finish and not interrupt you. Go back to the beginning."
"Well it's pretty complex, and I admit to not understanding it much at all. The beginning really is just that there was light, the light is the basic building block of life, all of the universe was within what I think could be termed a big ball of light. And then you know, to simplify it all there was consciousness and harmony and peace and all the songs styles of the sixties description of a wondrousness. At least god explains it like a sixties hippie."
"Really, like a hippie?"
"Yeah, I dunno, I mean I'm a kid from the sixties, maybe that's my point of reference. Anyway, what happened is that this big ball of light was in fact composed of individual consciousnesses, each having awareness of the whole, and of the self. Some of them sort of got together and communed on the conscious level that they wanted to exist outside the community consciousness. To experience more, to be their own universe. So they broke off, became separate. And here is where it gets hard for me to understand, but according to god, being part of a copy of the whole is not as good as being part of the original whole. So the part wanted back, their pursuit of vanity, their troublesome teen years I guess, were unsuccessful. So, the universe told the part, come on back, but prove to us, the universe, that you have learned that oneness is best. And so the universe set forth seven planes of existence for them, meaning the individual collective consciousness that had in its own conceit separated from the universe; now had to exist within seven separate levels or planes of existence and learn from each. Now, the seven levels are Arithmetic, Geometry, Balance, Harmony, Music, System and Eternity. And we are a part of the third, Balance. The thing to remember is that the universal consciousness is indeed one big thing, however it is made up of individual essences, us. Each of us, our conscious mind, is part of the big part. And we also have to understand that all life here on earth is part of the universe, every living thing has that spark of life, the essence of light."
"The spark of life?" she asked.
"Yeah, all life it would seem has something that non-living things don't have, that spark of life. And the reality is that it's visible as a tiny bit of light. The more complex the organism, the greater is the light coming from it."
"It actually sounds somewhat simplistic. Almost Sunday school explanation for kids. Just a few questions Mr. Marshall, I hope you can answer them. Are we living here, in this plane of existence, within the time frame and simultaneous of the other six, or do we live them consecutively?
"Oh, nice, very nice question. Doctor, the universe is all things, time included. Time as we perceive it exists in this plane of existence for us to live according to the laws of physics set forth for us. This existence along with the other six are all part of the universe as a whole and all exist individually and in total all that was, all that is and all that will be. What we perceive as the now, is in fact NOW. The future may in fact exist as a sum total of all things in the universe, for the universe, but we perceive the present, and can change and alter our futures by our actions here in plane three as well as in each of the other six planes as well when we consciously exist in those planes. What that means is that nothing is set in stone, even though for the universe, everything has already happened in each plane that we exist in. And the big concept here is that even though the future has already happened, it is outside our realm of perception and we still have to live our lives, make decisions, perform actions in order to get to that future. And as before when we spoke about god knowing the future, god is for now existing in our plane of existence and as such is bound by the same laws of physics as we are and cannot see the future. Does that make any sense doc?"
"No. If god is living in our plane, isn't god also part of the, no sorry, isn't god the universal consciousness and as such completely aware of not just what happens in this plane, but the other six and also, I think by definition, capable of seeing the sum total of existence from all seven planes of existence as they have, as you explained, already happened?"
"Well, I guess we should put that on the list of questions, are there multiple gods for each of the seven planes, and are they in and of themselves individual or collective. Come to think of it, that is something I asked a long time ago, about whether there is but the one god."
"Yes, I remember. You stated god did not think you capable of understanding the answer. Well then again, god hasn't actually given you a definitive answer yet. We must look toward what else you have told me, that everything in the universe is part of the whole, even the part that broke away. I mean it's still part of the whole, right?"
"Yeah, I think you're starting to have an understanding of this doc."
"Well, maybe. I still think that god being the universal consciousness should know all past, and the future. You said god had access to the past, why not the future as well, it seems as though they are both part of the universe, past, and future."
"That's a perception of god that we aren't able to make. Is in fact the god with which I have been having conversations, the god of the entire universe, or just the plane of existence in which we now live, or perhaps each of the other six planes. Or also one can go further, is this god the god of the narcissistic part of the universal consciousness, or the remaining part, or of the whole? That's the bigger question I think."
"And what do you think Mr. Marshall, which is it?"
"Personally, without asking, and I haven't asked that one, I believe god exists for us in this plane, and the universe in its entirety as well."
"Then there should be an answer for my question."
He stood, look at her with a slight smile and glanced down at the impression his bottom had made in the chair. He looked up at his court assigned psychiatrist and smiled fully now. Then he shocked her, "Doc, I think our time is up, but let me leave you with this thought until next time we meet. The thing is, I'm god." And he turned and walked out the door.